Loving Dad

Started this blog to vent my pent up feeling which still sobs in solitary confinement remembering my dearest daddy.Mr.Walter Robert Jeyapaul, who had great dreams for me. Washing his grave with my tears,I try to adorn it with royal achievements.Catch a glimpse of "My Eyes are Glistening"

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

Did you see my Dearest Daddy? Tell my name and he would turn eagerly to spot me in the crowd.

I've been searching for him for the past 11 months.When I last saw him on the 11th of February, he was sleeping-not in the bed, but in a glass case.I thought he was trying to catch a short nap at around 2:35 pm, so that he can dream some more about his dear son, thats me.............

I tried waking him up, but he didn't answer. That familiar hug and that passionate kiss on his now grown up infant son never changed........... except on that day, when he had to sum up all the dreams he had on planet earth for one last time.

"Daddy, wake up!I have come back from Bangalore.Daddy, see what I have brought-This month's salary.Pray and bless me daddy".

He was still asleep, without snoring!

Oh! I forgot, how would you know my daddy without seeing him once? Well see his photo and if you come by this countenance anywhere, please let him know that I wanted to meet him and kiss him and there are lots to be told.I am waiting.

I missed him on his birthday on September 14th. He didn't even come with mom and Jaffin to the Church on Christmas day and most surprisingly, his seat was empty at church on New Year too..............oh it is highly unbecoming of Daddy. I wonder why he does so.He used to be the first person to enter the church during any service, but Daddy, now.....................where are you?

Daddy, why are you not talking to me when I call home? Speak Daddy..............I woke up at 2:30 am today,thought I would share something with you in the morning and then realised that 11 months ago on this day, you left home to go some place from where you would never return. Can I come there to meet you.Will they let me hug and kiss you?

Daddy, Iam unable to laugh like before-cos I miss you and am crying from within always.Iam unable to perform like before, cos after I succeed, you are not there to greet me and kiss me with a glint in your eye.I didn't even wish people at church on New Year, cos you were not there to introduce people to me!

Mom, Jaffin and I are waiting to meet you Daddy.Today, I am wearing your shirt that you gave me.Tell me how I look in it.Am I looking like you?

Daddy, where are you? Where did you go? Did you read the letters that I wrote to you.......................or atleast the EPITAPH that is etched on your grave?

How I wish I had spent more time talking to you reciprocating your ALL POWERFUL LOVE while you were still alive.Now how can I show you that love in return?

Daddy, please speak............................. atleast once.

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